12/21/09

At about 3am this morning I woke feeling really nauseous.  I woke and found myself sitting straight up in bed trying to hold off the vomit.  I was really tired and did not feel like hanging out at the toilet all night so I propped up my pillows the same way I do to ward off an oncoming sinus headache and was able to calm my nausea by laying down in a slight upright position.  Praise the lord.  One of my most hated things in the world is throwing up.  Not wanting to ever experience vomiting I have pretty much phased drinking alcohol out of my life once I met Derek.

I had my 1st prenatal visit today.  You know how they make you pee in a cup?  Well, it seems that I got a bit of stage fright.  Which is so wierd cuz I always have to pee.  Even then.  But I think I was so nervous/excited about the events of the day, and the fact that there was an sweet old lady down the hall that was talking and I could hear everything she was saying and in the cutest voice I just couldn’t focus on the task at hand. She sounded just like the old lady/the rapping granny in the Wedding Singer.

Even though I wasn’t able to provide a tinkle sample my doc proceeded with the exam and ordered an ultrasound.  I know, right!  An ultrasound at 6 weeks 4 days…a chance to see my little bean growing inside of me.  The technician was able to show me and let me hear the heart beat.  Since I wasn’t expecting the opportunity to see the bean, much less be able to heart the bean I was just in awe.  Everything  checked out A-okay.  That was so good to hear.  The bean’s heartbeat was at 120bpm, which is the low end of the scale (120 – 180 bpm), but she said that sometimes you can’t even hear the heart at this point so it’s nothing to worry about.  It will get stronger in the upcoming weeks.  While the technicion was running a report she asked me to have a seat in the hall and gave me my pictures from the ultrasound to  look at.  That’s when it hit me.  Looking at the pictures of my soon to be child made so thankful for the blessing God has given me.  Then my eyes stated to tear up. This visit really solidified the fact that I really am a mom-to-be.

I scanned the ultrasound picture and texted it to Derek.  He sounded a little choked up on the phone when we finally got to talk.  Well it sounded like he was a bit choked up, but there were people around so he couldn’t really talk to loud…considering we haven’t told a soul yet.  Nope…not a soul.  That day is what Christmas morning is for.

12/18/09

No major morning sickness yet!  I have been having an uneasy feeling in my stomach.  Almost a nervous queasy, yet I’m not hungry.  Thinking about eating just makes it worse.  I feel like if I eat something it will cause me to barf.  That wouldn’t be fun at all.  I have been forcing myself to eat while I’m at work because I read that eating, the right types of foods, may actually help ease the queasiness.  It does help a bit.  I have been eating oatmeal squares cereal.  I figure why not get the fiber while I can.  I surely don’t want those nasty hemorrhoids.  Ya know!

11:39am – Feeling a bit faint.  Not sure if it’s the fatigue, or if I just need to fill my belly.

Seriously…why can’t I concentrate.  Not looking good from this angle.  Gonna barf.  Gonna throw-up.  Blah!

I just wish the day we announce this bundle of joy to people would get here already.  So I can allow myself to look as pitiful as I feel.

The bean is sucking all the water out of my skin.  I’m am trying to drink as much water as I can each day.  I know I’m not getting the recommended 10 glasses, but I’m working on it.  I think the most severe symptom I have is dry skin.  This dry skin thing just happens to coincide with the driest time of the year.  So I am constantly itchy and constantly scratching all parts of my body.  I have Derek in on the scratch fest too.  He mainly handles my upper back when we are at home. It’s just too much trouble to reach back that far.  Thanks babe.

Okay…my left butt cheek won’t stop twitching.  What does that mean?  Does it want me to get up and dance?  Shake my booty?

I like to share stories.  Hence the blog.  And what other experience in life do you gain more stories to tell than during pregnancy?  I have been keeping a journal of various thoughts, worries, concerns, excitements, hopes, and fears since I’ve been pregnant.  I decided to do this in case there was something significant that day medically or emotionally that I may need to reference, or to tell my doctor.  My journal entries would give me a quick way to reference the date and my thoughts/concerns..  It also allows my husband to look back and read about things (even just the small ones) that may have happened recently that I didn’t have the guts to tell him, or just plum forgot.  I’ve been sharing a folder with him in Google Docs containing all things pregnancy it also contains my pregnancy journal.  This way he can read about what’s happening whenever he chooses.

I thought it might also be kind of cool to share some of my journals with others.  I know there are others out there experiencing the same worries, concerns, milestones, and excitements I am, and I thought sharing my stories and thoughts might just help, comfort or possibly just entertain someone else.  Now, don’t worry these won’t get to descriptive.  I don’t want to turn away readers.  The private version of my journals do contain things that I am certain others don’t want to read about, so I will be editing them for you.  Enjoy.

12/17/09 :: Day 42