5/6/10 :: day 182

Today is one of those “I’m hungry and I’m going to eat everything in sight” kinda days.  I’m thinking it’s Grayson that’s hungry, because he has been wiggling around in my belly (kicking me in the diaphragm) all morning.

Am I supposed to celebrate this mother’s day?  I mean I’m just pregnant and don’t really have a child to hold in my arms yet…so maybe not.  My mom mentioned that NEXT year I will get to celebrate mother’s day too. (She didn’t say it in a mean way she was excited that next year I will get to celebrate with her)  I guess that means she believes that once you pop out a baby is when the real Mother’s Day celebrating starts.  I don’t know where I stand on this subject.  I don’t know if I should be disappointed if no one wishes me a Happy Mother’s Day on Sunday, or if I should only expect to hear that phrase next year.

I am so excited.  Today we start baby classes.  Our hospital offers a 7 week training class that skills you in labor and delivery, breastfeeding, newborns, and breathing techniques.  It also includes a tour our the labor and delivery ward at our hospital.  I hope we make and A++++ in the class.  I tend to be an overachiever in these types of things.

5/7/10 :: day 183

Last night we went to baby class and it was wonderful.  There was on “dad” in the class that was a jokster.  By the end of the class his “jokes” we kind of getting old.  I mean we are there to learn about all this birthing stuff right?  Well then sit down, and shut up dude!  You could tell he was beginning to anger the instructor…who is awesome by the way.  We practiced breathing and relaxation at the end of the class.  The dads were supposed to repeat “In two, three, four…Out two, three, four” in a soft voice, but you see the voice Derek used for me is a voice that always cracks me up.  It’s like he’s trying to whisper and be sweet and loving, but it comes out as a raspy kind of voice.  Words don’t do it justice.  You just have to hear it for yourself.  And you kind of have to know his personality too.  Let’s just say it CRACKS me up.  The teacher called me a giggle box, cuz I couldn’t stop laughing at my poor husband that was just doing what he was told.  Poor kid.

I finally had a dream about Grayson.  I thought it was strange that I hadn’t had one yet.  I mean, even Derek’s had one.  I dreamed that I was carrying Gray around in his adorable BabyBjorn carrier.  And I kept kissing his sweet partially haired head.  All I can remember is thinking that I hadn’t kissed his head ever and that’s all I wanted to do at that exact moment.  Even though it was just a dream I loved every minute of it.  PERFECT.  I can’t wait for the moment that becomes reality.  I love this little boy so much already, and last night’s dream just made that love 10x’s stronger.  It gave me a taste of what’s to come.  And I’m so excited about that moment.

5/10/10 :: day 186

Today was a doc’s visit day.  I did my test for gestational diabetes and passed!  Woo Hoo!  My doctor gave me a lovely orange drink called Glucola that I had to drink 45 minutes before my appointment.  It was an annoying day to say the least.  I woke up with pain in my right hip that didn’t go away until around 2pm (I hobbled around everywhere I went today….I ran a ton of errands), it was raining out, I wasn’t allowed to eat until almost noon, there was construction going on in the grocery store (they were welding something on the ceiling) so I couldn’t go down a few isles and had to send Derek back to the store for the items I missed.  I sure wasn’t going to venture down and isle that had sparks falling down into it….now was I?  I’m not going to risk my life for a can of soup.  No Way!

Oh, I forgot.  We got the results back from our Down’s Syndrome test, and the test was NEGATIVE!  When I called and told Derek he was ecstatic.  Not that we wouldn’t want a child with DS, but we realize the challenges DS brings to a child’s life.  We tested for it so that we would be prepared to assist our child in any means possible.

5/12/10 :: day 188

I woke up this morning with my right hip hurting again.  I went to the doctor’s on Monday and mentioned the pain and my doc said that it most likely is sciatica.  Sciatica is when the baby is pressing on a nerve “the sciatic” nerve in your lower back.  This can cause pain in your hips, back, and feet.  My doc also told me that the sciatica may slow down my leg a bit.  The 1st thing that popped into my mind was me walking around in circles because my right leg was slower than the left one. Hehe. Don’t worry, I didn’t say that to my doctor, but I totally told Derek that thought when he got home that evening. To add to this, I also think the kid is messing with the left side of my body too.  Another common symptom of sciatica is numbness…and I got it baby.  On occasion, I will wake in the middle of the night and find that the bottom of my left heel is numb.  It’s so weird.  Once I reposition my body I find that the numbness goes away in my heel, but my right hip is a different story.  My hip still hurts this morning and it’s now 9:30am and I woke up at 6am.

(10:00am) Today is one of those really, really hungry days.

There are some days that I worry about my bladder.  I mean is that thing really there or is it just a grain of rice absorbing moisture.  I mean really…

Have I mentioned that my belly button is all but gone.  It seems like in the past week it went from being all spread out (like a tiny swimming pool) to just about MIA.  It’s still adorable.  It looks like my belly button is a tiny little mouth that only has an upper lip.  I think in about another week or two we will be seeing it POP!

4/29/10 :: day 175

Wow!  This little dude is extra active this morning!  He has been tumbling around in there since I woke up this morning @ 6am, and he is still moving (8:22am)  This child loves the left side of my tummy.  I mean LOVES!!!

I was having a bit of an upset stomach again this morning.  Hoping it was just do to a lack of food.  I just chowed down on leftovers from our breakfast/dinner from last night.  Yummy…again!  That seems to have helped.

Okay, it’s about 10:30am, and I am having some lovely stomach pains again.  They seem to be just at the top of my belly (a.k.a. – uterus)  They are fairly short in length, but about a 3-4 on a pain scale of 1-10.

The “girls” are crazy itchy today.  Since I’m at work I can’t just shove a hand down my shirt and take care of them now can I?  I don’t work at that kinda place.  What’s a girl to do?

4/30/10 :: day 176

I’ve got a pain in my side like nobody’s business.  I believe it’s from gas.  I tried taking a lap around the parking lot and doing a few stretches to dislodge the dang thing, but it ain’t moving.  AT ALL!

Okay, it’s 10:25am and my side is still hurting.  This is going on 2 hours now.

4/23/10 :: day 169

This little boy is a kickin’ this morning.  It seems like he is playing the drums in my belly.  While typing this he was kicking so I put my hand on my stomach and felt the strongest “hand on belly” kick to date.  It was freaking awesome!!!!  I called Derek right away to brag about my experience. He is now beginning to kick WAY above my bellybutton.

4/16/10 :: day 162

Gray’s crib arrived today.  I’m so excited.  I can’t wait to go home and set it up.

4/19/10 :: day 165

For the past few mornings, my stomach (a.k.a – my baby carrying area) is crampy.  It feels better once I stand up and stretch it out.  It almost feels like a leg cramp (once you stretch out that tensed out muscle, every feels just fine).

4/20/10 :: day 166

Today has not been my day as far as pregnancy hormones go.  This morning I had two tear filled pity parties for myself.  My pregnancy hormones don’t make me get all blubbery often, but they do occasionally hit.  My eyes tend to leak mainly when I get over stressed.  Before the pregnancy, in extreme cases this would happen, and I could never control it.  I wasn’t sad, just under pressure and my body’s reaction would be to cry. So weird.

This morning I was having a bit of cramping.  Like when I would go to cross my legs the muscles just below my belly button would A-C-H-E!!! My doc said it is just do to those muscles being forced apart by my every growing belly.

4/8/10 :: day 154

Okay, my little kicker is uber active this afternoon. I think it’s because I just ate the second half of my chicken club sandwich left over from lunch.  Around noon today I was having a few sharp pains in my stomach.  I don’t know if it was baby stuff or my actual stomach having issues.  That is surely one thing that is hard to tell the difference between now-a-days.

4/9/10 :: day 155

Someone must be mad at his momma today for her lunch decision.  Pizza. This kid has been kicking me non-stop since I got back to the office.  Well I’m sorry little man, but momma LOVES pizza, and there is nothing you can do about it…so just DEAL!

Wow!  I am extremely agitated right now.  I am typing this so I don’t blow up.  It may be just me but since I’ve been pregnant it seems like all of a sudden people want twice the work out of me.  I stopped taking my ADD medicine once I found out that I was pregnant, and it has made work hard enough with out it.  Now, it also seems that more work has been flying at me and I just can’t keep up.  It really really sucks.  I am so use to being productive at work, but not being on my medicine is really putting a damper on my productivity.

I’m mad at myself for not being able to do more, and mad at myself for having ADD.  It really sucks when you see all of these people with the determination and natural ability to focus and all you seem to do is end up daydreaming about stupid crap.  I wish I naturally had the work ethic my husband does.  I am in awe of how hard he works, and how well he does at EVERYTHING. Not to mention…my pants are tight and uncomfortable and I have to pee.

4/10/10 :: day 156

Last night, while laying in bed, Derek finally got to feel Grayson kick.  The moment will forever be burned in my mind.  Just hearing the excitement in Derek’s voice, and feeling his head snuggle in next to mine.  Both of us sharing a pillow and a moment, was something I’ll never forget.  It was magical. Derek finally admitted to me that he was a bit jealous that he wasn’t able to feel the baby move and I was…well that jealously is gone.

Right now the kicks are nothing much, but you can still feel them.  So that counts.  Right?

4/13/10 :: day 159

I went for another prenatal check up yesterday, and all is good.  My next appointment I get to test for gestational diabetes…yay!  They gave me some orange drink to drink just before I go to my next appointment.  The stuff is called Glucola.  That just sounds like tons of sugary fun.  Grayson’s heart rate is around 147.  Juuuussst Right.

This morning was NOT a good morning.  Everything had me on the verge of tears.  This is maybe the second time this has happened since I have been pregnant.  I was also cramping just a bit on the ride to work, and that just about made me cry too.  It wasn’t that the pain was bad, I just was crying to the strangest things this morning.  I didn’t think I would make it through this morning at work.  I told Derek to be ready for the call to take me home.  As the morning progressed things got better, and I think I will be able to survive the remainder of the day.  I think.  I just want my little guy to get here already.  I’m not tired of being pregnant, yet, but I really do want to hold him.  I miss him and I haven’t even met him.

BREAKING NEWS: My feet have begun to swell!  NOOOOO! This means Derek will be married to the Michelin man for the next 4 months.  Poor guy.

4/14/10 :: day 160

My lady bits hurt today.  It’s like he is hanging out on my pelvis bone. …Oh I forgot!  My doc said that the ache in my tail bone should lessen over time as this kid moves upward in my abdomen.  Right now he is still fairly low, and may be putting pressure on my tail bone, and causing the soreness.  Boy am I ready for this annoyance to go away.

4/1/10 :: day 147

Today is a pretty awesome day in baby land.  So far, the two times I have felt Grayson kick were on two separate days, and only once each day.  Today I have felt him kick (or punch…I don’t really know which direction he’s hanging out in these days) numerous times.  I mainly feel it when I am sitting at my desk hunched over in my chair.  Yes, poor posture I know, I know, but it feels so good. I have felt a light nudge almost like a bubble popping under my skin in my lower belly just above my left leg.  So freakin’ awesome.  On most days I feel a broad pressure, but generally it’s when I go to lay down at night, and I can’t really feel him move.  It’s more like I feel where he is.  This is a HUGE milestone for me and my little man.  I called Derek in the middle of Grayson’s little KickFest to let him join in on the foot kicking fun.  While I was talking to “daddy” the G-man kick again; kinda like he was telling daddy HI!

4/2/10 :: day 148

Momma

4/6/10 :: day 152

This little guy has been kicking up a storm the past two days.  Although they are not the strongest of kicks…I love feeling them.  It kinda feels like little tiny bubbles PoPPing in my belly.  Derek is just dying to feel the little guy kick.  He tries, but the only thing I think he can feel is his own heart beating through his fingers.

4/7/10 :: day 153

This little boy has been kicking all morning.  Derek and I rode separately to work this morning, because he has to stay late today so the poor guy missed the acrobatics Grayson was doing in my belly during the car ride into work. I am hoping in another week or two that the little guys kicks will be strong enough for Derek to feel too.  My mom is anxious as well to feel my belly move.  My mom is already a grandmother, but I think it is a bit different when it’s your actual daughter that is carrying the baby.  When it’s your son’s child most likely you don’t feel 100% comfortable touching another woman’s belly and having “discussions” with her about things happening with her body.  But when it is your daughter having the baby; I think it can help Grandma and Mommy to bond in their own special way.